I have this constant need to be in control of everything and anything. If it's not my way, it's the high way. Group projects: I have to be the leader even if it means doing extra work. In the kitchen: If Aaron doesn't mix this the right way or stir that fast enough, I just take over. This is definitely something I need to work on, but it's not exactly easy to do. If I'm not in control, I get super stressed.
I have an unhealthy relationship with stress.
Sometimes I do it to myself on purpose... I load myself up with a million hard classes, tons of hours at work, and I add some community service in on top of that. In a way, it's good for me because when I'm not busy, I'm bored. On the other hand, when I'm too busy I get so stressed out that I break down. Right now I'm trying to plan my classes for next quarter... I can't decide whether to take sixteen quarter hours or twelve. Aaron will be in Power School, so I don't want to have too much free time on my hands, but I don't want to be so busy that when Aaron gets a free moment to talk, I'm not available. Ahhhh.
I've had a bit of a stressful week, can you tell?
